A Midrash on Two Women and Their Impossible Pregnancies

By Nikole / December 19, 2017 / 0 Comments

This Fall I wrote my first academic paper in over 12 years. 12 years! As as a result, I was slightly nervous to write an academic paper for my graduate school. I’m good at blogging, but that’s a completely different form of writing compared to academic papers. So I scheduled…

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By Nikole / November 9, 2016 / 0 Comments

I have a dear friend whom I knew for years before I ever learned she was a secret poet. We’ve laughed together, cried together, raised our kids together. We’ve had deep conversations, hard conversations, and life-giving discussions. And yet this poetic side of her was always kept in the dark. I don’t…

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Pain and Loss and My First Tattoo

By Nikole / July 17, 2016 / 0 Comments

Friends tease me about the fact that I find papercuts painful and that I hyperventilate whenever I get poked with a needle. (thanks to having donated my plasma one too many times in college). But giving birth without meds? No problem. It hurts, but pushing a baby out seems natural to me; stabbing…

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The Sun Will Rise

By Nikole / June 18, 2016 / 0 Comments

(11 minute read – Sermon from 6/16/2016) If you’ve been listening to the news this past week, you’ve likely been reminded of all that’s wrong in this world. Where the beauty and hope and love you started believing in seems to have been swallowed up in the recent tragedies that…

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On Letting Go… and Letting In

By Nikole / March 23, 2015 / 2 Comments

  Letting go…isn’t easy. It’s hard, it hurts, and sometimes it just plain ol’ sucks. Two and a half years ago, when I was pregnant with Eden, slowly but surely a passion began to grow in me… a passion that made me see the world differently. A passion that made…

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The Ups and Downs of Adoption

By Nikole / August 31, 2014 / 2 Comments

I feel like this picture perfectly captures the state of my heart and mind these past couple weeks. Our adoption process is only beginning and I’m already an emotional wreck. Goodness knows what I’m going to look like 6 months from now. 😀 Don’t mind me if I have bags…

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The God of the Messy

By Nikole / July 15, 2014 / 2 Comments

The past two weeks we were blessed to have two of our former high school students stay with us. It was extra special because these two were from the other side of the world – South Korea. It’s crazy to think that I taught them in 10th and 11th grade,…

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A Shattered Heart Begs for Forgiveness

By Nikole / May 14, 2014 / 4 Comments

Tonight* I am so angry. So, so angry. My heart is filled with such heavy sorrow. Oh my heart. My body is physically ill, to the point where I feel like I’m gagging on my heart between my sobs. I feel so sick. Tonight I watched the movie Philomena. The…

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Mom's Night Out

By Nikole / May 12, 2014 / 0 Comments

Last night my mom and I went to see Mom’s Night Out, and to my surprise, it was so good. I was expecting it to be a pretty cheesy film, and so I was happily surprised to find myself laughing right out loud and clapping as I couldn’t contain the…

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For the weary and broken

By Nikole / April 3, 2014 / 0 Comments

I had written this for someone in particular, but felt that there are lots of us who could use these words. Read on sweet, broken Warrior. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Dear Sister who is in anguish, I know you have a tough decision ahead of you to make. I know your heart, mind…

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