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Divorcing Mamas: You Are Not Alone

By Nikole / September 19, 2016 / 2 Comments

You guys… my friends are being abused; their children are being abused. This is not a joke. This is their reality and they’re opening up to me about it. And the hesitancy and the fear these women have had in telling me and their loved ones about the abuse is…

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My Unexpected Healer

By Nikole / September 14, 2016 / 0 Comments

As you all know, it’s been a couple crazy years for us. We’ve experienced job insecurity, financial loss, broken relationships, adoption delay, and an unexpected third child – and that’s just in our personal lives. Add to this the ongoing injustices done to black, brown, queer, and/or female bodies in…

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Pain and Loss and My First Tattoo

By Nikole / July 17, 2016 / 0 Comments

Friends tease me about the fact that I find papercuts painful and that I hyperventilate whenever I get poked with a needle. (thanks to having donated my plasma one too many times in college). But giving birth without meds? No problem. It hurts, but pushing a baby out seems natural to me; stabbing…

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The Sun Will Rise

By Nikole / June 18, 2016 / 0 Comments

(11 minute read – Sermon from 6/16/2016) If you’ve been listening to the news this past week, you’ve likely been reminded of all that’s wrong in this world. Where the beauty and hope and love you started believing in seems to have been swallowed up in the recent tragedies that…

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Everybody Sucks (at something)

By Nikole / May 9, 2016 / 0 Comments

My sister-in-law and I were talking on the phone a couple weeks ago about what triggers our insecurities, particularly as women and for me as a mom, and the expected responsibilities each role assumes. We shared a couple stories of people we know who seem to do the whole wife/life thing so much better…

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My homebirth with Judah

By Nikole / February 24, 2016 / 4 Comments

(Trigger: this post contains detailed accounts of birth and pain) For those of you who are friends with me on social media, you’ve already seen some of our photos from our homebirth. And can I just say how thankful I am for our photographers? They sure captured such beautiful moments…

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Celebrating Our Unexpected Gift

By Nikole / November 3, 2015 / 0 Comments

Friends, we are 5 weeks into postpartum, and while my brain is fried from sleep deprivation, my heart is so very full. Holding sweet Judah in my arms has changed so many things for me. Before he was born, I was nervous I wouldn’t feel bonded to him. I was afraid…

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Our Brand New Bedroom!

By Nikole / October 11, 2015 / 2 Comments

**So I’m gathering the fact that Baby has determined to become an October baby. He wants nothing to do with mid-September, so he’s choosing a whole new month for himself! So while my 42 week belly and I wait for his arrival, I thought I’d finally post pictures of our…

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It's Happening, Folks…

By Nikole / September 14, 2015 / 0 Comments

Well, we are officially at 40 weeks over here! Which means baby will be arriving any day now, whether I’m ready or not. It’s still surreal to think that I’ll be holding a newborn in my arms anytime now! Am I really ready for this?? Can I do the whole…

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Exchanging my Regret for our Gift

By Nikole / September 11, 2015 / 12 Comments

Guys. We are just 1 week’ish away from baby being here. I can’t believe it! He’s moving around like crazy and causing me to pee every hour but even with the interrupted sleep and my terribly slow waddle, I am FINALLY, finally at a place where I feel ready to…

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