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When Grief and Love Collide

By Nikole / March 1, 2017 / 0 Comments

Whiplash and grief. These two words were given to me by my therapist on my visit to her office last Spring after I shared with her all that went down in my life the previous two years. These two words accurately described those tumultuous years. When I first arrived at my therapist’s office, I felt…

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Breathe

By Nikole / November 9, 2016 / 0 Comments

I have a dear friend whom I knew for years before I ever learned she was a secret poet. We’ve laughed together, cried together, raised our kids together. We’ve had deep conversations, hard conversations, and life-giving discussions. And yet this poetic side of her was always kept in the dark. I don’t…

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Divorcing Mamas: You Are Not Alone

By Nikole / September 19, 2016 / 2 Comments

You guys… my friends are being abused; their children are being abused. This is not a joke. This is their reality and they’re opening up to me about it. And the hesitancy and the fear these women have had in telling me and their loved ones about the abuse is…

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My Unexpected Healer

By Nikole / September 14, 2016 / 0 Comments

As you all know, it’s been a couple crazy years for us. We’ve experienced job insecurity, financial loss, broken relationships, adoption delay, and an unexpected third child – and that’s just in our personal lives. Add to this the ongoing injustices done to black, brown, queer, and/or female bodies in…

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To Moms Who Feel Like Failures

By Nikole / May 10, 2015 / 0 Comments

This winter was the hardest winter our family has experienced in the past six years. Having lost our income for several months to becoming unexpectedly pregnant to letting go of a lifelong dream as well as having my best friend be nearly killed by a drunk driver, I had hit a new low…

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On Letting Go… and Letting In

By Nikole / March 23, 2015 / 2 Comments

  Letting go…isn’t easy. It’s hard, it hurts, and sometimes it just plain ol’ sucks. Two and a half years ago, when I was pregnant with Eden, slowly but surely a passion began to grow in me… a passion that made me see the world differently. A passion that made…

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The Ups and Downs of Adoption

By Nikole / August 31, 2014 / 2 Comments

I feel like this picture perfectly captures the state of my heart and mind these past couple weeks. Our adoption process is only beginning and I’m already an emotional wreck. Goodness knows what I’m going to look like 6 months from now. 😀 Don’t mind me if I have bags…

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A Shattered Heart Begs for Forgiveness

By Nikole / May 14, 2014 / 4 Comments

Tonight* I am so angry. So, so angry. My heart is filled with such heavy sorrow. Oh my heart. My body is physically ill, to the point where I feel like I’m gagging on my heart between my sobs. I feel so sick. Tonight I watched the movie Philomena. The…

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