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A Midrash on Two Women and Their Impossible Pregnancies

By Nikole / December 19, 2017 /

This Fall I wrote my first academic paper in over 12 years. 12 years! As as a result, I was slightly nervous to write an academic paper for my graduate school. I’m good at blogging, but that’s a completely different form of writing compared to academic papers. So I scheduled…

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When Your Dream Finally Comes True

By Nikole / July 12, 2017 /

I have always envied the people who’ve known what they’ve wanted to do since they were young. Whether that’s being a dentist or teacher or family business owner. How beautiful it must be to know what you want and to go after it. I, on the other hand, have spent…

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A business trip to Haiti

By Nikole / June 20, 2017 /

Ahh, I’m back. What an amazing business trip to Haiti. A business trip to Haiti? Isn’t that a place you do mission trips to instead? you might be asking. Yes, it is a country that has had a lot of mission trips to, which is part of the reason why it took me…

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When Grief and Love Collide

By Nikole / March 1, 2017 /

Whiplash and grief. These two words were given to me by my therapist on my visit to her office last Spring after I shared with her all that went down in my life the previous two years. These two words accurately described those tumultuous years. When I first arrived at my therapist’s office, I felt…

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Being a bartender made me a better Christian

By Nikole / February 14, 2017 /

The first time I encountered alcohol in my life was in third grade. My friend invited me over to her house to play after school one day, and when I walked in, I saw her dad in a recliner holding a bottle of beer and watching tv. I froze and…

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Living Shame-Free

By Nikole / September 26, 2016 /

(13 minute read – Sermon from 9/22/2016) (In the first few seconds of my audio recording I’m choking back tears but I sound normal after that:) I love Brene Brown’s definition of shame. She describes it as the intensely painful feeling that we are unworthy of love and belonging.  In other…

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Divorcing Mamas: You Are Not Alone

By Nikole / September 19, 2016 /

You guys… my friends are being abused; their children are being abused. This is not a joke. This is their reality and they’re opening up to me about it. And the hesitancy and the fear these women have had in telling me and their loved ones about the abuse is…

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My Unexpected Healer

By Nikole / September 14, 2016 /

As you all know, it’s been a couple crazy years for us. We’ve experienced job insecurity, financial loss, broken relationships, adoption delay, and an unexpected third child – and that’s just in our personal lives. Add to this the ongoing injustices done to black, brown, queer, and/or female bodies in…

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Pain and Loss and My First Tattoo

By Nikole / July 17, 2016 /

Friends tease me about the fact that I find papercuts painful and that I hyperventilate whenever I get poked with a needle. (thanks to having donated my plasma one too many times in college). But giving birth without meds? No problem. It hurts, but pushing a baby out seems natural to me; stabbing…

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The Sun Will Rise

By Nikole / June 18, 2016 /

(11 minute read – Sermon from 6/16/2016) If you’ve been listening to the news this past week, you’ve likely been reminded of all that’s wrong in this world. Where the beauty and hope and love you started believing in seems to have been swallowed up in the recent tragedies that…

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