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A Beautiful Party, A Beautiful Life

By Nikole / October 22, 2018 /

Two beautiful things happened this weekend. First, I threw a party Saturday night in celebration of my one year anniversary of being out of the closet (wooohoo!). Over 30 people came, and my house was bursting with conversation, good food, laughter, and love. (Plus, I’ve always wanted to throw a gay party,…

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The Gift of New Beginnings

By Nikole / September 3, 2018 /

It’s September!! We’re in a new month! We’re starting the ninth month of this calendar year! And you know what that means right? Okay, truth is, it doesn’t really mean all that much to be starting a new month. Unless you decide to make it mean something. /// Whenever it’s…

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Time, Honesty, and Grit

By Nikole / July 2, 2018 /

If you’ve been following my Goodbye Church mini-series, you might find yourself: cheering me on as a fellow recovering christian feeling solidarity for not being alone in this journey angry that I would talk about the evangelical church and its leaders in such a way heartbroken that I’ve left the…

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When You Say Yes to Yourself

By Nikole / June 25, 2018 /

Last Fall, I was sitting in my therapist’s office on a Friday afternoon, processing with her the idea of someday coming out of the closet publicly. I had a lot of fear.  I was afraid of losing friends and family… I was afraid of being judged and talked about behind…

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The Love and Light That You Are

By Nikole / June 18, 2018 /

I have come to believe that the core of every human is made of love and light. I find so much joy in the moment when God fashions human beings, steps back, and says, “Wow, now that is good.” Do you realize that about you? That when God looks upon you, she…

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Coming out of the shadows

By Nikole / May 21, 2018 /

You were always meant to live in the light. To feel the sun’s warmth on your skin, to absorb the joy that seems innate with the sun, and to be happy and free. The shadows was never meant to be your permanent homeland. We all journey through shadows. Some of…

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Love Will Bring Us Home

By Nikole / February 26, 2018 /

This is a story from the caverns of my heart – a part of my heart that I rarely share with anyone apart from John. But today, I feel called to share this particular cavern of my heart with you. I originally wrote this piece for an audition I recently…

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Looking for and Celebrating Miracles

By Nikole / February 20, 2018 /

I had a powerful session with my life coach last week. If you’ve ever wondered if life coaches really work, let me tell you, we do! I have a mind-blowing, life-altering coach that has helped me make and continue to make monumental shifts in my life. He’s helped me become…

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Being a bartender made me a better Christian

By Nikole / February 14, 2017 /

The first time I encountered alcohol in my life was in third grade. My friend invited me over to her house to play after school one day, and when I walked in, I saw her dad in a recliner holding a bottle of beer and watching tv. I froze and…

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To Moms Who Feel Like Failures

By Nikole / May 10, 2015 /

This winter was the hardest winter our family has experienced in the past six years. Having lost our income for several months to becoming unexpectedly pregnant to letting go of a lifelong dream as well as having my best friend be nearly killed by a drunk driver, I had hit a new low…

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